I never knew.....I never knew.

"I never knew that everything was falling through
That everyone I knew was waiting on a queue
To turn and run when all I needed was the truth
But that's how it's got to be
It's coming down to nothing more than apathy
I'd rather run the other way than stay and see
The smoke and who's still standing when it clears."

- The Fray (Over My Head)


A French writer named Anatole France once said, "It is well for the heart to be naive and for the mind not to be." It's been a troublesome road to learn this in my own life.

I guess I've always just joined my heart and my mind when I think of being naive. I mean, who wouldn't agree that somewhere down the line in life it's actually a good idea to say, "You know something? I think I'll not get involved in this. I'll sit this one out and rest up for the next game. It sounds a bit dodgey to me." Humans are natually prone to self-preservation anyway. We're a selfish bunch, the whole lot of us. Thinking about that, I have to kick myself because I tend to say, "Screw it. What's the worst that could happen?"

This summer has been, well, awful. I don't mean to exaggerate, and I hope I'm not. Looking back on the past month and a half, I've not found much to be overjoyed about. My business is really quite slow, aside from a few bigger projects that aren't paying right now. I've experienced a single towering hurt like no human should, and I'm working at Theatre in the Park. The summer has been an intense learning experience, but the hard knocks have been harder than expected.

Clear as mud, right? I know how you feel.

Current Life Lesson: The human will instinctively destroy another human to make himself appear grand, instead of living respectably and appearing grand by merit.

Anticipated Course of Action: "I'd rather run the other way than stay and see
The smoke and who's still standing when it clears."